To be honest my day was a disappointment, maybe my expectations were too high. My disappointment wasn't the performance on the pitch (and If I blame anayone it is Brown not the players) but the general atmosphere.
Listening to others and reading their stories I feel like I was permanently in the wrong place at the wrong time.
Arrive at Wickford for the 8.40 train, platform is totally rammed, more so that a weekday- excellent I think, try to get a 'blue army ' chant going--- struck with silence.
Arrive at Liverpool street - 'thousands of us there - try the same thing , silence , a few others are trying as well but in there are less than a couple of dozen in total singing.
Decide not to go to Green man as word is it is rammed already , so we guess it will be nightmare and we wont get near the bar (turns out to be totally wrong form posts on here)
Get to Globe and MacDonald’s for breakfast, no queue in MacDonald’s (there was 30 seconds later so result) , and although the pub is rammed they are serving pretty good. Have a few drinks , atmosphere good- not great good. Friend shows me the line up he has received from one of the players---- oh dear this is not what we hoped for/expected
Get to Wembley , brilliant seeing thousands and thousands of SUFC fans, but again very little singing, in fact the Crew mob are making more noise than us. Can't explain why but just not as excited as I hoped to be
Into the stadium, find friends , find out seats are dead centre behind goal as we hoped---- result. Everyone is standing, things are getting better , apprehensive , hoping again
Kick off- we don’t kick the ball for 4 minutes , a free kick screwed up and bang a wonder goal 1-0 down. We start singing , but its just not happening in the stands , lots of small groups of a handfuls singing Finally we score and for a few seconds it goes mental , and in that moment I am thinking – this is what we have been waiting for , this will galvanize the crowd , the atmosphere is going to change right now , this is what I came for- we can do this , we can beat them , the crowd will be on side now , we are all in it together , even if we don’t win we are going to go home proud that we did everything we could to spur on the team, this is our (the supporters- not the team ) moment --------------------and of course it didn’t happen.
Maybe my expectations were too high, maybe I should have made more effort to take in all the positives , to stand back and tell my self and my son and our friends ‘this is it- we are at Wembley’. Of course I am still happy I went , but I enjoyed the Orient games more . For me the reality just didn’t live up to the expectations- hopefully in the coming days I will reflect and change my mind a little